inkskinned:

oh i’ve been trying to fill this with anything that could maybe sate the yawning ache. i’ve tried eating food and not eating food and blades and booze and drawing and writing poetry and sex with the wrong people and refusing to kiss the girl i like and only kissing strangers and long walks and yoga and sudden health addictions and sudden spirals into nothing and getting organized for all of week before deciding it’s not worth the energy and cutting my hair or dying it and piercing things and holding ice cubes to my skin and lighters and other things but hey. but hey. at least i’m trying