miserablelittlesmugbastard:

my favorite coping mechanism for my paranoia is carrying a knife everywhere and hiding them in my room and the shower because it makes me look and feel like an old mentally deteriorating man in a cabin in the woods that you have to stay at because your car broke down a couple miles up the road and you think the old man is the monster and hes going to kill you but hes just defending himself from the real monster in the woods.

i also listen to podcasts in the shower and turn all the lights off so its a weird sensory experience